Letting Go

A day dedicated to your heart
Only it won't ever sing again
Because inside he's torn you apart
And even though you lie so still
And try to cry out the guilt
You hide your life with time to kill
Your heart just isn't strongly built
And next time you need him
It will hurt and you might cry
And at times the light will dim
But before you know it time will fly
You'll be all better and ready
Ready and able to let him go
You'll feel great and it'll improve
So go ahead let your heart show
And freedom, it will taste so good.

As You Wish

A loved B but he had to leave to find C, only he was taken captive on a ship called D only to become E. Now he fights his way through F & G, while H is home trying to steal his love. But on his return he finds she has been kidnapped by I, who is only trying to hurt J. So he fights through K & L to save his one true love. To find she's given herself up to M. While fighting back N tries to kill him, but O brings him back. So he grabs P and they storm the castle. While Q is killing R in a battle almost lost, he hurries to try and find S. Even paralyzed and unwell he fights to the brim with no help from T or U. He fights off V and ties him to a chair. In runs W who's just gotten revenge on X and they climb out the window to find Y ready and saddled. Z jumps and they all ride off into the sunset.        
                                                                       And it's all because A loved B.
                 

From This Life

It is 1993 April 22

I never knew how much I would love the air

Or how the first swallow of oxygen would make my heart sing

I didn’t know I would hate the bright light

Or how everyone is so loud

I hadn’t realized how her look would make me feel,

How her touch was the only safety I found

I never knew how much I would love the innocent world,

In all its simplicity, the blue sky and the green grass

I didn’t know I would hate the dirt of people,

Or all the scum that flies in their words

I hadn’t realized the world was so mean,

And that one day they would hate me too

I never knew how much I would love the noises of people,

Or the sound of my own voice when I laughed

I didn’t know how much I would hate rejection,

And the look people give when they’re judging you

I hadn’t realized how soft my soul would be,

Or how gentle my heart could sing

I never knew how much I loved being loved,

And the smiles and laughter of the people I saw

I didn’t know I would hate the smell of war,

Or the pain that people you trust can inflict

I hadn’t realized how hard it would be,

To watch the world go by against my will

I never knew how much I loved my family,

And all their chaos, until it was gone

I didn’t know I would hate how much it hurts,

To watch everything I earned be thrown away

I hadn’t realized I would be so soft,

And that my heart wouldn’t heal so quickly

I never knew how much I would love security,

And the feeling I get when I am safe

I didn’t know I would hate being tossed about,

Like a salad ready to be dressed and eaten

I hadn’t realized I would one day find peace,

And I would know, everything would be alright

Past, Present, Future

When I think of me,

I think of the young girl

The one still looking for herself

I think of that look…

The annoyed, obnoxious look

That people get when I’m too loud

I love that look

I think of laughing with my friends

And beating on my brother,

Crying with my mom,

And lying to my sisters

I think about my dad, who’s gone,

And how he used to be

I daydream about my childhood

And the innocence that I carried

And the purity of my small world

I try to understand all the things

That went wrong when I was young

But it wasn’t me; it’s not all my fault

I think about the future

And that special someone

Whom someday I will get to know

I think about what I will do

And where I will go

I can’t go back and start again

Or retrace my steps

I can’t unlearn the things I know,

Or undo the damage done

But I can guard the things I love

And protect the future I look forward to

Same

Life today is the same tomorrow
In or Out I'm bored and plain
My life seems lost in times play
Cuz Predictability seems to be my game

The Way He Should Be

So your bad at choosing boys,
you let yourself believe its all in your head,
but really your just being used as a toy
and letting your heart be torn to shred.

For a boy who doesn’t even respect you?
Well get rid of him, wipe your slate clean.
You deserve someone who sees you,
the real you, not as a toy but as a queen.

He should hold you when you cry,
put his arm around you with pride
and laugh when your being shy.
He should make you smile wide.

He should make you feel pretty
and tell you how special you are.
He should be cute and wity,
with him you would go so far.

He should hold you tight
and tell you he’s already missing you
when he kisses you good night.
He should look at you with love too.

He’s a guy so he’ll make a mistake
but that's what makes it so much fun.
Sure you’ll cry but your heart won’t break
and in the end you’ll just know, he’s the one.